I want my family to die
I love my parents, more than anything. I promised myself I wouldn't kill myself right after the divorce for my parents sake. It would devastate them. But as soon as they're gone I can go too. Life has been so tough and seeing her just date and flit from guy to guy while I go to bed alone and miserable is just too much. I miss her more than anything and I'd even forgive her if she would just come home. But she won't. Somehow I keep up appearances, still have a great job, cool house, nice car and great friends. I'm not a homebody and I go out a lot. I've hooked up with some random girls at the bar over the last year but nothing will ever compare to what I had. I used to be so happy and now... well now I'm not. I haven't been happy in years. I can't wait until I can just end the pain. I won't put mom and dad through that. So once they're gone I can finish giving away my stuff and call it a day.