I want my family to die

I love my parents, more than anything. I promised myself I wouldn't kill myself right after the divorce for my parents sake. It would devastate them. But as soon as they're gone I can go too. Life has been so tough and seeing her just date and flit from guy to guy while I go to bed alone and miserable is just too much. I miss her more than anything and I'd even forgive her if she would just come home. But she won't. Somehow I keep up appearances, still have a great job, cool house, nice car and great friends. I'm not a homebody and I go out a lot. I've hooked up with some random girls at the bar over the last year but nothing will ever compare to what I had. I used to be so happy and now... well now I'm not. I haven't been happy in years. I can't wait until I can just end the pain. I won't put mom and dad through that. So once they're gone I can finish giving away my stuff and call it a day.


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  • Please, please reconsider! Your life is worth more than you know! Talk to someone about how you feel right away! I'm begging you! In case you haven't heard it in awhile, you are loved so so much!

  • Suicide is never the answer. Believe it or not you will be happy again, this will pass and you will be in a better place. You have to believe that. Doesn't seem like it right now because you are hurting. But you will get to that place where you see that life is worth living and there is someone else out there for you to love again. Break ups are hard especially when you don't see them coming and there is no real explanation. You just have to accept that it's her and not you. For whatever reason, she needs this freedom. You have to live your life and know that you are on different paths right now. You want different things. You also miss the person she used to be. You aren't ready to date, so put that on hold and take care of you. You have to say good bye to that relationship, and maybe you need the help of a therapist to do that. And don't go to the bar to find someone. Right now, you need to figure out what makes you happy..and it's not about bringing in another person. It's about dealing with the core of who you are - minus the great job, cool car and house.. Do some work on yourself. Spend some time with your friends and family - especially those parents of yours - who are going to be here for a long, long, long time..

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