I am f****** done. I have no one. My friends left, my sister, my own dad. My mom keeps telling me its not my fault, but really there's no one else to blame. I am just a mental f*** that has no chance at survival.Aug 24, 2015
Most people are let down by friends, family members at some point in our lives.
Find people who bring out your happy side - also, you are what you say you are so stop saying defeating things about yourself.
Every morning look in the mirror and say something positive about yourself - I am lovable, smart, kind, for example.
Don't use drugs, or drink. Get a pet maybe.
Fake it til you make it, start with positivity!
Stop looking for people to justify you and "friends" to validate your existence. You need to live life for you, and not just exist. I love life and live it to the fullest every day. You need a new attitude in life. Here's what i say, when i die the words "i wish i had done that" will never come from my lips. That's my 2 cents worth.
I dropped all my friends and family because everyone had ulterior motives. Family members wanted A LOT of money while my friends are just crazy. I prefer to have friends for friendship's sake. I was lonely in the beginning, but I eventually found casual friends thru social events that helped ease my loneliness. I admit, it took a year or so, but having acquaintances do help. Try sites like eatwith where you'll meet random people. The other guests have been pleasant to be with so far. Try it. While I didn't find any lifelong friends, hanging with new people you might have something in common could be fun.
You could also see a therapist. The local psych schools might be able to provide you a therapist for free, or so I've heard.
Finally, you're probably in a transition in your life and there's not much you can do about everyone in your life moving on to the next phase. I suspect this is what's happening instead of it due to having a lousy personality.
I would listen to your mom. If she said it's not your fault, it's not your fault.
Do something about it. As long as there is tomorrow there is always hope.