I still love the man that beat me
This guy almost killed me on numerous occasions, the beatings, the threats, all the pain and still it was also the greatest experience of love I have ever encountered. I tried so hard to be kind and be loving and it was never enough to stop the rage and sadness. Strangely, he was the one that left me and it seems he is happy and kind to another now. I can't stop thinking about him and why I could not enjoy the best of him, why someone else gets what I worked so hard to see inside of the one person I will always love? I know I am far better now in my life without him, but still wish to see him one day, only to know if he feels the same way and could treat me the way I deserved so very long ago. Walking together on the train tracks, along the seine river holding hands. In love again, somehow, someway..