Don't know what it means
I came back to my office after hours one night last week to spend a couple of hours working on a project before going home. I walked through the front door, and past the cubicles, going toward my office. As I turned the corner, I looked down the way and could see my door ajar, with the light on. I thought nobody was there, since there weren't any cars in the parking lot, and all the lights were off in the main floor work area. At first I was scared thinking of possible burglars, but then I didn't hear any movement so I thought it was clear. Still, I tiptoed down to my office, and leaned over far enough to see into the room. What I saw was shocking, but I don't know what it means. My secretary was sitting in my office chair with her feet propped up on the edge of my desk and spread wide apart . . . masturbating. Once I got that close I could hear her moaning, and I could even hear her fingering her p**** and slapping her c***, because her entire t*** was drenched. She was turned far enough away from the door that she couldn't see me. I started to leave, but I couldn't take my eyes off of her or stop watching what she was doing there IN MY OFFICE. Eventually she started c******, and after watching a few seconds of that incredible sight, I slinked back to the front door and eased out and left while she was making noise. Now all I can think about is the sight of that amazing woman masturbating at my desk, especially when I'm seated there, but all other times too. I even smelled the chair and caught no whiff of anything sexual, much to my chagrin. She wasn't looking at p*** on the computer, nor anything else on the computer. So I can't imagine what she was doing there (when she could have been frigging at home, one assumes), or why my office was the scene. I want to ask her about it, but I feel like that would be a horrible violation of her private moment. If we weren't both married to other people, I would ask her out on a date, but I don't want to alienate her. What I really want is to make love with her, repeatedly, and long term. I'm just caught up in a tangled web.