EXTREMELY UNHAPPY ABOUT MY GIRLFRIEND AND HER KIDS
My girlfriend and her kids make me feel very annoyed and mad EVERY SINGLE DAY since several months ago,,
We've been living together for 4 years now, her babies 3 and 4 years old call me daddy,since they only know me and we left it like that....
I really don't want to be with her,I only feel sorry for her also I tried to break up with her but everytime she try to suicide by using a knife against her wrist...she always do stuff out of love she always wants to have s** with me ir make love and I ALWAYS SAY NO OR FIND FOR AN EXCUSE SO I DONT HAVE TO HAVE S** WITH HER,, its been around 8 months since the last time we had s**. She doesn't attract me NOMORE...
Im always thinking about been with someone else and always thinking about leaving to some other state,alone and meet someone WITHOUT KIDS, someone who I could really like physically and emotionally.
Im 39 years old and I NEVER Been happy with my ex girlfriends or my exwife,,, i always chosen them in a hurry because i was feeling lonely,but made the mistake of getting into a relationship too soon and getting together with the person who has none of the things im looking for.
Now it's been few years since I been a extremely unhappy man and i feel destroyed by my own attitude towards my girlfriend and her kids,, i act upset mad and i yell at them and don't give them the attention they need BUT BECAUSE I DONT WANT THEM AND I DONT FEEL LOVE FOR THEM,, it's like everything they do bothers me and make me super upset,, it's like they are on my way...I feel like I want to be left alone,,,, I don't know what to do,,I don't know who to talk to,,, and I don't know how to escape this nightmare ... Please help ??