Trying to understand

I am not a saint, far from it, I have been active for a long time. But I got it in the **, I was called a **, after he finished with me he slapped my ** real hard. When I was pulling myself together he grabbed my ** again and he told me he would f*** my ** anytime I wanted. Later when we went to bet breakfast he put his arm around me in a head lock and told me that he liked a ** with a tight **.

I can't get him out of my mind, I adopt the position, he calls me a ** in front of other people, at a club he had me go down on him in the booth. He puts his hand down my top and pinches my **. And when he tells me to adopt the position, I adopt the position and get reamed again. He f***s my ** too, but if he needs to impress upon me he has me adopt the position.

Guys like this have always turned me off, but he has me, I can't walk away, When he slaps my ** all it does is make me want it more, especially on my bare **. When he slaps my bare ** I get real wet and can't wait for it. I am not at all like this in real life, only with him and he knows it.