In love with husbands best friend
Me and my husband have been married for 9 years, together 10. I met his best friend at the same time I met my husband. He tried to get my number and I turned him down. Months later me and my future husband were in a serious relationship. Fast forward a couple of years, my husbands best friend started hanging around our house a lot and spending the night. Somewhere along the way I developed feelings for him and one drunken night, I acted on them. I wrote him a poem through a FB honesty app knowing he would never know who sent it. Unfortunately, my husband started to sense something wrong and asked if there was anything I needed to tell him. I told the truth. Later that night, my husband called his best friend over and had a sit down with both of us. He told his friend that I was the one who wrote the message and explained that I expressed that I liked him in a non-sexual way. Afterwards my husband and his friend went off alone to discuss the situation. I was so embarrassed! Since then we moved out of state and it has been about 7 years since this situation. My husband and I'm sure his friend as well, thinks I'm over the feelings, but I am not. I think about him every day and night. I feel like the situation was never finalized and I don't know if the feelings were mutual. I feel like there is some type of connection between us that I cannot fight. I wish I could reach out to him and ask.