I was a bad babysitter
Triggered by another post I just read about their baby sitter.
When I was 18, 19 I would baby sit this 12 or 13 yo boy. I had him sit on my lap in his pyjamas and watch tv. I would run my fingers up the inside of his thigh. He had to not close his legs or resist me.
I now look back on my younger self and cringe. When I hear about kids abused when they were younger getting their abusers charged by the cops I wonder what I would do. Will I deny it? Will I confess and apologize and risk jail.