I think I'm letting my son down, and chronic pain
I always thought I hated being a mother, like parenting took something away from me, but I realise now that wasn't the case. I'm failing as a mother.
I'm ill with a chronic pain condition which means I'm unable to find work that I can do that won't make my condition worse. My options are limited.
I have multiple degress and have worked all my life, but this condition is making me feel hopeless. It has taken so much from me. I'm trying to build a business from home but failing miserably. I have little to no money, my motivation has left me. I feel like I'm not doing right by my boy.
He's so bright and is clearly a natural entrepreneur. Very focused. Very creative. Takes no bullshit from anyone. I love that about him. I'm trying to help him reach all his dreams. But it hurts to know I haven't got things right for him. I don't even have any savings. I don't want to ruin him or hurt his upbringing, but being a single mother with no family support or friends to help leaves me exhausted.
I hoping that things pick up soon. I need a job or for the home business to work so I have some money coming in. I wish my pain will give me a break so I can walk 20min without suffering the consequences the next day.
I want to help and protect my son but how can I when I can't do it for myself.