The heart wants what it wants

Maybe you'll find an experienced girl that will want to settle down.

I believe it's not what your "heart" wants. It's what your hormones want. You're tripping yourself.

I admit: part of it is hormonal. But I met a woman like what I seek a few years ago, and have been trying to replicate that relationship ever since. I really do believe in what I'm looking for, and that it will engage both my heart AND my hormones. Thanks for your thoughtful message.

Then don't marry at all. You can find these girls around your friend circle, prostitution, and maybe just some strangers who're looking for make some money out of the **. It's that simple.

I have actually tried all of that, but have only succeeded to a small degree, and not to the point of finding someone I want to marry. With friends, the "nastiness" is mostly only role play, not heartfelt. With hookers and strangers, they're only passionate about the money, not about the **. I want a woman whose hormones are so out of control that she simply HAS to ** or get ** every few hours; in short, a woman who is passionate about ** and will do whatever it takes to get it. I met one, a long time ago, and she is the model for what I'm looking for. She wasn't available (already married and not looking to divorce), so I'm busy looking for someone like that who IS available.

Enjoy your stds

There would certainly be that risk, but we could protect against it to a degree, and whatever it was would be shared. That would make it a little easier. I appreciate your weighing in, thanks.