I really do want it.
I want to be taken "against my will" by multiple men. Pinned down and forced to accept load after load, delivered by the erect members of strangers. I want them to shove themselves in my mouth, in my p****. I want them to choke me, call me dirty names, and then fill me up with their cream one after the other after the other before leaving me to find my way back to reality.
I am married. I love my husband. If not strangers, I can settle for associates. I want him to get drunk and lose his judgement with his friends one day so I can walk by in something a little too low cut, a bit too revealing, maybe too tight and set them off. Make them come after me. Make them push me against the wall, hold me down, take turns... Or not. I can serve three at once in a pinch, I suppose. He's too sweet, and would likely never go for taking me by force, even if it was a game. But I need someone to put me in my place, take my power and make me their toy. Preferably, multiple someones.
I am faithful. I feel a bit sick for wanting this. There are millions of traumatized women who likely think I'm a monster. I considered making a post on an adult site where I could provide my work location, hours and "best time to kidnap" to a prescreened group of young, hard and energetic men of multiple races to fill me full of strange c*** and c** - but that's too unsafe. I don't have a death wish, but f***, I NEED to be pinned down.