I am in a good marriage, and I know it. My wife is pretty fat: she weighs over 400 pounds. She's gotten fatter and fatter over time, and I can't even remember what it was like to have s** with her when she was below 200 pounds (she was ~160 when we met).
About a month ago we were having s** and I was trying to go hard because I thought she liked that. She told me to stop trying so hard because I'm not a big enough guy to "manhandle" her and my p**** isn't big enough to bludgeon her the way I was trying to do. She said if I was bigger and had a bigger p****, or if I were having s** with a more petite woman maybe what I was doing would work. Since I am what I am and I'm partnered with such a fat woman she said she wants me to be a soft and gentle lover.
I spent the ensuing week thinking about what it would be like to have s** with a petite woman. Then out of nowhere a very attractive and almost petite Latina who is on the fringe of our social circle struck up a conversation with me. She admitted she was attracted to me and even though she knew I was married decided to approach me anyway. Over the course of about a week we talked and shared sexual fantasies w each other. I told her what my wife had said to me. Then the discussions escalated to the point where she wanted to put thoughts to action, asking me when and where I'd like to meet. I desperately wanted to but I also knew where it was heading and didn't want to cheat on my wife.
Long story short: I explained I couldn't meet with her and broke off contact. She was shocked because she thought I'd be easy to pick off since my wife is so fat. She made fun of me a bit but to her credit promised to leave us alone.
Since then I've had mixed emotions. I know I made the right decision. My wife is a beautiful woman and wonderful person who deserves better from me. I should never have let it reach the point I did but when it came down to it I made the right call and backed away.
At the same time, even though I know I made the right call, I also feel I missed an amazing opportunity. I do love my wife and the s** is amazing but I still can't help but wonder what it would be like to have s** with someone who doesn't weigh over twice as much as me. But I know that's a temporary thing because my wife's weight doesnt actually bother me. It's more a passing curiosity, yet the letdown from my decision lingers.