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No Good Deed...
I feel frustrated. I'm in a long-distance relationship and my boyfriend struggles heavily with depression, so much to the point that I'm the one keeping him balanced and stable. Yesterday, I got upset over a stupid reason, which I also apologised for within the same night only to have it carry over to today, and throw him completely off balance. We're talking on the phone, and after a misunderstanding that is only getting worse, I tell him I think it would be a good idea for me to get off to prevent further irritation on his part, but that I love him and I'll check on him later. An hour passes, and grab my phone to send him a quick "How is everything?" message only to find a bunch of messages from him saying how no one understands him, him promising to disappear, and how I need to leave him alone. As someone who personally suffered from depression and suicidal tendencies, this makes me incredibly nervous. I see this as a red flag and decide I can't be the only one to know of his depression anymore, so I tell his brother about how he's feeling and that he could use some family support since I'm not there. After my bf and I "patch things up" I reveal to him what I did, and I was met with great hostility. Not only by him, but by his brother, too, who claims that he is always so supportive and perhaps I'm the problem... they're part of the reason my boyfriend is depressed. Seriously, there is no winning. The phrase, no good deed goes unpunished is so relevant in this situation. I'm upset because I took a huge risk, practically betraying my boyfriend's trust, by telling his brother and I doubt there's any coming back from this. I think I'm going to lose him... At the same time, I really hope this opens a door so that he can actually get help, specifically from people who are ACTUALLY there.
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