Guilty to death
i'm currently overseas as a teacher, and my girlfriend and i were having a rough patch after 4 months of being apart.
and in a moment of weakness i made out with a girl, which then became a sleepover thing. no s** and nothing beyond kissing it was more for the need to have somebody to cuddle up to.
i know i have to tell her but i can't bring myself to.
She made confessions to me about the smallest of things and hearing her say that just made me wanna stab myself in the heart.
i'd like to think i could marry this girl and i know if it ever came to that i would confess this misdeed of mine to her.
but the fact that i go against my principle of being honest has made me really hate myself.
i'm about to go into another ldr period with her, and part of the reason i didn't tell her (yes apart from my own cowardice) is becuase i want to be able to make it up to her while we're together .......
i 've only told one person about this thus far.....
and now i tell the world.