Wearing ** makes me feel girlish

I'm 50 years old. I've been wearing ** since I was 8. I grow up in a very conservative, strict family. I knew at 8 years old that I was gay, but of course I had to hide it, wearing girls ** made me feel like I was living a little part of my gay life. Plus I really enjoyed wearing them a round my family and they never knew. I went to a Christian school and 3 times a week to church, I'm
A Christian and I love God. But every day i was at school and every time I went to church I was always wearing girls **, and they always made me feel gay & girlish. I could always tell if a boy was gay even though no one else did. I would become friends with him, then have him stay all night. When we would get in my bed I would take my shorts off and then take his hand and have him feel my ** I was wearing. I was 9 years old,and this was back in the seventies. While my brother was a sleep across the room, this boy I brought home would play with me through my **. It felt so good, and at 9 years old me and my best guy friend started enjoying gay ** together. I have worn ** my whole life, No one ever knew in my family that I was gay or that I was wearing womens **. Till just recently. I finally came out openly gay to everyone, and I didn't stop there. I've let everyone know, that I wear womens **. But only very **,
soft,silkypanties. I put pictures of me wearing only ** on my Facebook & Instagram accounts.so now not only does everyone in my small town know Im gay and that i wear womens **, but they all have seen pictures of me wearing womens **,
Now I have 2 female friends that I go pantie shopping with. I love going to a mall and spend all day there, shopping only for **. I spend a round four thousand dollars a year on **.i love shopping for them as much as I love wearing them.my name is Phillip Gessel and I love wearing women's **.