Forced to blow. Now want it all the time
I'm 20, and got drunk 2 months ago at a party. 4 guys brought me to a bedroom . They stripped me and forced me to blow them. They slapped me around until it did it.
I resisted but suck as I couldn't take being hit anymore. They laughed because I hot super hard while sucking them. Then the first one came in my mouth, when the c** it my tongue my body reacted by c****** also.
They had not even touched my c***, I just came. Then the next guy f***** my mouth. When the last one came, I came again.
They left me there naked, later two other guys forced me to blow them.
I'm disgusted with myself, now I'm have been picking up 4 or 5 guys a day for the last two months and blowing them. I'm obsessed with reliving that night and c******.
I'm in a public toilet now and just blew a fat guy 5 minutes ago. He was disgusting but I need to taste c**. I came in my boxers.
I'm so f***** up. Why did I go gay?