I am a mother of 3 boys
My husband is a truck driver and only home weekends
I get lonely alot.
I am a petite nice looking woman and have fantasies about cheating.
Whats got me confused or upset with myself
The past week i was watching tv with boys i was on love seat and the other 3 were on floor and couch
I wont say which
Anyway i was cold so had my legs pulled up and blanket on
I was alittle h**** and never done this but I slide my hand down my sweats
And masturbated in room with them close by
They couldn’t tell.
Problem is I wasn’t thinking of any fantasies at time so was having issues with climaxing
I was h**** and wet as i ever been
I usually close my eyes to. But wouldn’t because boys were there.
I was staring at tv and my eyes dropped to my son on floor he was on his belly his back to me watching tv and his but his bare back i stared at my son and had to choke down a moan and came in my sweats.
That night i went to bed no one the wiser
I was still h**** and I imagined me straddling him cowgirl and grinding into him.
My hips were bucking and i came hard 3 times in a row.
I sink into matress and drifted off to sleep.
Now i do it all the time two or three times a day.
I have used all 3 at different times in my fantasies.
Always me just taking them.
In the bath i climb in and pull him on me.
In the kitchen i let the oldest bend me over.
Taking turns in my bed.
In my fantasies i keep it a secret not one knows about the other.
I need to stop i try to the more i try the hotter i get.
Is there a way to break this.
Anyone else have fantasies like this?