I love you. I really do. I want to tell you and I've tried in a roundabout way before but I don't know if you feel the same way. You send me so many mixed signals. If I bear my soul to you I think you'll be callous or flippant like you always are. I don't know how you think of me, even after we've had s** the dynamics of or relationship seem to remain the same. I just want it to be okay to love you, but I often feel like I'm chasing my tail in this pointless pursuit. Sometimes I get so frustrated with you,I don't know what to do. I love you so much. Why can't you see that?