I think I should leave my dh and kids
Doctors can't find why I have chronic pain. They refuse pain meds for 5years but have taken all our money. It has destroyed my life. I am a terrible mother and a worse wife. I should become a drug addict on the street because no matter I can't be what they need. Better they remeber the good bits and not be contaminated by a pain filled angry mom. The doctors treat me like a drug addict might at least become one away from the family. Leaving them might be the best thing for them and I could get some relief.
Mom, Don,t give up on your family! Your children are depending on you for getting you to their adulthood! Things will change! Hang in there.