i cant do it anymore
i dont think i am strong enough to live. the only things i look forward to are being asleep and being drunk, because then i feel like im closer to death. or at least farther from life.
i know it makes me selfish, but i feel like i have no real purpose any more.
My friend has made sure that all the sharps i have are dull enough but i have one he dosent know about.
i might do it tonight. this might be the last thing i ever write, the last thoughts of mine that anyone will ever know.
If they are, i want my friends and family to know this: i love you and im sorry.
-Aleph Bet Shin-