Foolish old me

I CONFESS SEE MY CONFESSION UNDER LGBT.
F/F.
VERY OLD ME OVER 65,CONFESS MY FAULT NO **.
I LOVE BETTING ON HORSES REAL AND VR.
NOW I AM OLDER A BIT LATE.I CAN PAY MY BILLS ON LINE
MY RENT IS D/D.I HAVEBEEN WORKING ALL THAT TIME
SLEEPING IN NIGHT SHELTERS SA AND OTHER PLACES.
I EVEN GAMBLED MY RENT NOT NOW.TO ME IS WAS LIKE BEING HIGH
ON DRUGS.I COULD NOT WAIT FOR BETTING TO START.
I NEVER TOLD MY WORK I WAS ADDICTED TO GAMBLING.I NOW WISH I DID.
I FORGOT REALITY.BEGGING ON THE PHONE TO MY MUM NOW DECEASED YEARS AGO FOR £5.I NEVER REALISED I WAS SELFISH AND THINKING OF MYSELF.I NOW GIVE REGULAR TO CHARITES SIGHT SAVERS,WATER AID AND SAVE THE CHILDREN.I GOT A PROBLEM WITH MY FLAT THAT NO ONE WILL HELP ME.
IF I REACH 80 I BE HAPPY.I ADD NOT SEEN MY RELATVES SISTER NIECES ETC FOR YEARS.I WISH I COULD TURN TIME BACK.I GOT TO GO TO A CHARITY SHOP JUST TO BUY A PAIR OF TROUSERS AND MAYBE A WOMENS BLOUSE.
I TAKE ENOUGH MONEY ON MY OWN TO BUY AND HAVE A DRINK
DRINK DOES NOT BOTHER ME BEING ON MY OWN DOES FOR ** MALE ORR FEMALE.THANK YOU.