one of my New Year's resolutions for 2009 was to cry more. the fact is, my tear-ducts don't seem to process my emotion sometimes, so i rarely cry, hench the resolution.
so far this year, a few terrible things have happened that have allowed me to cry, but i cry now more than i want to because i feel grief over not only these events, but the fact that they have fulfilled my resolution. in other times, i feel guilt -- maybe this event or that occurance would not have happened if i hadn't asked to cry more in this year...
it's all very stressful, and confusing, and i don't wish to incur the wrath of the universe any longer, so i've already made my resolution for 2010: cry less