imagine being voluntarily celibate for 3 whole years, not once even desiring to change it. last you checked, you loved s** but could care less if you had it ever again. you still love watching guys j******* and suck eachother but no sense of longing or wanting to join in. you wonder if you've become a voyeur. it's not your lack of lover but the fact that you don't desire one that disturbs you. you know this is really strange. you're a MILF if there ever was one. pretty, built, and all that stuff. well, that's my lot. let the good times roll.