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Obssessions with ** and ** since Monday
Hi my name is Herve.I'm 23 years old.I live in Mauritius Island.I'm a sexaholic.I normally use to go to SA meetings online via the internet on Paltlak which is known as the SA World REcovery group meetings.
But recently I was not feeling well and also was struggling with my **/** addiction and since this monday I stopped going to my meetings and also stopped going to any 12 steps program.
And I restarted my ** ** addiction patterns and symptoms.I restarted watching ** on internet,masturbated when watching the ** clips,went on various websites to download videos of my fetish ** actress lucy thai,julia channel,priva libellule,gaya patal,and many more pornstars and ** and ** things.I started to do voyeurism also at my place as I used to do that from time to time when I see beautiful girls or woman pass by on the road.I pull my shorts down sometimes and ** on them as I live upstairs in an apartment and look at them from upstairs.WhenI go out also in the car and anytime I see a beautiful lady,this attract my attention.This is my obssession.Moreover when the disease gets worse when watching more and more ** on the computer or on watch ** women on Tv which turns me on,I sometimes think about women I have known in my life that have attracted me sexually.I like to ** after women,have the obssession of being lusted after also and Im also desperate to have ** and find love coz I never had ** in my life I mean physically with a woman.
So on Monday,Tuesday and yesterday,I have watched ** on internet,watch babes on Tv,have had all kind of ** thoughts on lot of women,I have done phone ** that is when I was ready to ** I phoned some ladies one is Karen Ithier,I phoned ata her home,and when I heard the voice of a female I dont know if it was Karen or not,but when I heard her voice,I simply masturbated compulsively and ** on tissue paper in front of my ** movies on the computer.I phoned Treesha M,an indian girl that I know when I worked with her.I tried to phone her at her home but didnt get her on the phone as it is his father and mother who took the phone the time I phoned.If she took the phone,i know I would have said oh Treesha,yes yes oh yes,And I would have cummed thinking of her.And moreover I must say that she doesnt know I think who is phoning her.Anyway,I hope and think so.And there is another girl named,Ingrid P.who I have known through facebook,only by seeing her pictures she turns me on.And everytime I ** and take pleasure when watching ** movies on internet,I phone her and say hello ingrid and I put the sound of the ** film abit louder so that she hears and I ** on her thinking of her by phone.And yesterday moreover,I went on internet in the afternoon to download yahoo messenger so that I can go on chat rooms and meet women who want to have chat ** and phone **.I have had a lot of invitation to view cams of babes who showed themselves naked etc.I just tried at first to know if its free.I have even signed up on a website named Adultfriendfinder to join and find ** woman who wants to have ** in Mauritius.I also saw many pictures of woman and also men who showed their ** on their profile pictures,that was kind of funny.lol.Anyway,as I understood after that I must pay and become a member and pay for membership,I preferred to remove all links to my email from this site and also remove me from being registered on this website.
Moreover,before that I went on FAcebook to search for phone ** in Mauritius.And found one group where they were talking about ** in mauritius and gave one web link to search for people in any country who want to get laid.But it wasnt working the link when I tried it many times.Anyway,Ive changed up my mind and way of thinking and want to stop with all that and diminish my ** and ** activities coz when I do all that I get worse inside and the day after I even vomit a bit not food but I vomit in the morning and even sometimes I get diarrhea,
Moreover,yesterday I downloaded the yahoo messenger to search for someone to have phone ** or ** by chat or voice chat **...or view pictures.And I first went to a chat room for interracial dating but there were too much ladies who wanted to show me thier cam and sent me lot of messages and as I said before some I checked them and some I closed.but the one I checked we had to register and after registration some of them we had to pay or whatever.So I ** off on all that.Coz I dont want to lose time for registration and I have no money also.
Anyway,so I went to another room,the single room,where I met philipines woman one who was aged 29,but who didnt talk long with me.and the second who was 25 named rosemarie,I was hard when talking to her and had ** thoughts.Anyway coz I came for that also if the person wanted to have ** by phone etc.But that person Rosemarie the lady said that she has a little boy.I asked her if she was married.And she said she live with her boy aged nearly 3.
She gave me her phone num and I added her on my messenger list.And she gave me a link to see her pictures on friendster.
And When I saw her pictures I said t myself I dont want to do harm to that woman.I dont want to force her to have phone ** etc if she doesnt want.
Anyway I also Im a ** obssessed man obssessed by ** and ** and ** women.
Anyway,I know sooner or later I will definitely have to go back to my meetings on any of 12 step meetings whether phone,chat,face to face to recover from that **/** addiction and become sober and get better
So I said to myself it is better to tell them that
The 3rd Step Prayer
God, I offer myself to Thee — to build with me and to do with me as
Thou wilt. Relieve me of the ** of self, that I may better do Thy
will. Take away my difficulties, that victory over them may bear
witness to those I would help of Thy Power, Thy Love, and Thy Way of
life. May I do Thy will always!
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In 2010 I was not 23 years old.I dont know who has written this but I have an idea about it.Also its aged 25 not 23, that ive known SA program and it was only for some few months because the meetings did not last for long time on paltalk.Anyway Ive progressed a lot since that Im sober for gambling since 10 August 2015 and continued to work SA program.Ive experienced ** physically with my ex girlfriend but honestly its only ** in marriage that is legal and is a blessing.Also I attend face to face meetings for GA and SA once per week plus online meetings.At least im honest with myself,god and others.Good luck to all.
Hey look those ** comments of ** a fat chick.I leave that for you right...
For me Ive got the solutions with 12 steps programs and help with God and other help also.
I only posted this for me to do a confession thats all.
I dont even know about you.Ur comments and criticism when they are bad like this coz it can hurt people u keep it for you.
Anyway we live in a democracy u think what u want.I think what I want.
"For me Ive got the solutions with 12 steps programs and help with GOD..." Ah, theres the proof I was looking for. I were wondering if you had some kind of condition, now I know it's just stupidity. I hope God helps you out.