i hate my friends because their lives are so simple.
i cant eat anything without getting stressed out and feeling like a failure.
i cut myself to see if people will notice. they dont.
i miss scotty, even if he did beat up my mom sometimes and use drugs.
i was sexually abused. by both sexs...... and i kinda liked it.
i want to be raped.... just to know someone wants me.
i hate how my friends dont have to deal with anything like this. and i'm jealous.