embarrassing but true
I still have the hots for R. I can't tell anyone. Too much time has passed and it's completely nonsensical. I'm not a bunny boiler but I've had my moments and I'm not proud. It's not obsession territory but nobody else has caught my attention. I don't even know why he still appeals to me so much. I give a silent plea to the cute guys who flirt with me: Please try harder! Seriously, your only competition is a guy who has absolutely no interest in me. Please make me want you.