l constantly think of suicide but lm afraid of pain. lf it were a lot easier and l had a slightly bigger pain tolerance, l dont even think ld be alive now. lve looked up OD suicide but it doesnt seem successful. any other way seems too difficult. l know people think that people who commit suicide should think about their friends and family first, but l dont care. sure, l love my friends and family, but lll be dead. l wont care then. lm not emo, l have a decent life, and nothing tragic has ever happened to me, so l dont know why l feel this way so often.