You are the one and only person I have ever been able to settle down with. For the past two years I haven't been able to see myself with anyone else nor have I wanted to. You are the man I want to marry. Everyone always asks me why the h*** I am with you though. You are the most degrading, disrespectful, a****** I have ever known. You constantly put me down and treat my like a piece of s*** unless you want something. Nothing I ever do or give to you is ever good enough. The only time you ever "surprise" me with sweet things is when I basically ask you for them. You consider me a gold digger every time I ask you to buy me something, even if it only costs 1 dollar. If I ever have a valid reason to be upset with you, you are able to turn it around until I am the one apologizing. I can go on for hours explaining all the bad and mean things you to do me in this relationship, but I simply don't have time. I am starting to wonder why I put up with you and I think I'm starting to find some answers. Do I really love you? Or am I infatuated with chasing after you? I could have any guy I want but instead I settle for you? I wish I had the strength to get out of this relationship but I am so scared of the sadness I would go through by not having you in my life. Its getting to the point though that I am trying to figure out if the sadness you put me through every day is worth it. My happiness with you is so short-lived and I have such low standards put on you that the moments when you are even KIND-OF being nice to me, are some of the best moments of my life. How have I let you do this to me? You have taken away my pride, my strength, my independence and my sanity. Today, from now on, I will work towards finding the strength to leave you.