I love wetting myself

I loved wetting myself for as long as I can remember. I believe my oldest memories were wetting my diaper when waking up in the morning, until my mom asked me about it and I said I wet them because I have them. She stopped putting me in diapers at night and I stopped wetting. I think that was before the next memory, but I'm not even sure. Although I definitively had my own memories of it my mom mentioned much later how it came to stop, and my memory of that bit is very faint.

I also recall in my preschool year there was a caretaker service at noon and after lunch they had us have a pee before the nap. After having peed, I would always try to get as much as I could out during the nap, in my normal clothes. That was just a few drops and they normally wouldn't notice, except for one time. They changed me with space clothes they had, although I didn't feel that was necessary, and it was a bit embarrassing.

After that, I didn't really have any occasion to wet myself. I stopped thinking about it until after puberty.

Then of course puberty kicked in, and I was getting every chance I could to see ** women, except it turned out I was more turned on if they kept their ** on - I guess I always preferred imagining the rest.

I can recall the next part as if it was yesterday: I was browsing through pictures of women in ** I had downloaded earlier (it was dial-up back then) and I came across a picture of a women couching and ** through her **. I was *really* turned on by that, and this is when I started wetting my clothes on purpose again. I would also sometimes steal a sanitary pad, the thickest I could find, put it in my briefs and wet it.

I kept doing this, mostly in clothes as the sanitary pads held so little it wasn't useful to prevent wetting my chair or bed, and they felt way too small. I was too shy to just go to the store and buy adult diapers, so I would often wish I could somehow discreetly get my hands on diapers large enough for me.... until I gave up, years later, and just bought some.

I've been buying diapers regularly ever since, and alternate between wetting my clothes and diapers. Whenever I get new briefs the first thing I do it wet them. I love sleeping in diapers; sometimes I hold myself and re-use them another night, but they all end up soaked.

I even started wearing men's pads. Sometimes I would sit all day without going to the bathroom, and it became hard to finish up cleanly. It took more time and if I tried to hurry up I would feel some pee dripping down my legs. Now I just don't wait anymore, I love feeling some of it going in the pad, and sometimes back at home I wet it properly or even soak all my clothes.

And the best of it, when I see myself growing old I know I won't have any aversion for pads and diapers, quite the opposite. If I get incontinent I'll just embrace it and probably even love it.