Finding the best way to get castrated

I am trying to find a way to get castrated for free and as soon as I possibly can. I am a disabled veteran, who thankfully never got caught with a man. I am not sure how I had lots of men while I was in, even the main attraction at a 20 man ** on me. That was so amazing and I took a lot of ** home with me I put one of my tampons in to keep it from leaking into my **. I needed a taxi a few times while broke I told the driver I was broke but I would be happy to give him a ** as he drove and if he got hard again another one, two ** I'm not turning down getting two loads of ** in my tummy I said yes. I asked if I could play with a little through the window now. He let it out and I said oh wow you have a very nice big **. I was softly stroking it and he said you have such soft delicate hands like a lady. I said to make your manly big hard ** feel the best. I said ok I'm getting in I can't wait any longer to feel your ** in my throat and taste your **. I got in and there was a car behind us and they were looking at me when I looked at him and licked my lips and my went into his lap. I wanted the car behind to know I was getting ready to give a **. I was licking his ** and shaft like a good **, the way the men that pay me more demand, and a pick up pulled beside us and the passenger said he is getting a ** hey when you're done is she available? We drove off and he hit the brake a little hard and I had his ** on my chin and his ** in my throat. He asked why I didn't gag i stopped and said I know I'm only 18 1/2 but I have given a lot of ** and have had many times when the man grabs my head and ** my mouth hard so eventually I didn't gag anymore and took big ** into my throat. I have been doing it since my 12 birthday and I got a little ** on my brand new and very first birthday dress. The next week I began getting guys coming over who said my first trick told them I give great ** for $20 I'd let them in and i would be in a dress. Some men wanted me to change and I just want my men happy. Then they would tell guys so I got lots. I was so glad I got the courage to put on my sisters really ** dress and pantihose and stiletto high heels and I used her makeup and perfume. She had told me when I showed her me dressed up that I could use all her stuff anytime and gave me tips on makeup. I'm just so happy that we share a dress size 8 and shoe size we both wear size 7 in ladies high heels. Even now that we are adults we are both dress size 8 wear the same size ** and pantihose and we are still size 7 high heels. We have very similar ring sizes also. So all girled up I went in and said daddy I want to be your second daughter and I want to get castrated. I wasn't allowed the castration but I asked if I could get a new dress and shoes to wear for my next birthday? Daddy said of course sweetheart. I gave daddy a big hug and kiss and I thanked him. He said you certainly are very much like your sister now. I said thank you daddy that is so nice of you to say about me. I love you princess and you can't change the way this daddy loves his daughters. In the beginning of my military life I did some prostitution ok I did a lot of prostitution but I had money and they had a place to donate their ** to where I not only took it i wanted it. After a year of my very busy prostitution business I had lots of money put away for later I shut down. I would go out and always go home with a hot guy with a big bulge in his **. I would get his ** for free and that means he wants me not just my services. I had a reputation among the guys who knew about my ** life as a super **. I got so much action. I got a phone call at work one time he was yelling at me someone took the call and said a man on the phone for you it's Tony and he's mad he called you she. I said please tell him I'm not here he said too late. I took it and he said ** are you ** another man? I said no just you i swear. He said you better not i said Tony you know i love you. A girl walked by and heard that and she could see i was almost in tears and said, are you ok girlfriend i shrugged, she knew about me she stayed with me and after the call she took me to the ladies room and made sure we were alone and I broke down and she helped me through that and getting me away from him because he hit me a lot. I was happy getting so much ** I tried to give a ** every morning before work to hold me over till the next one. I have even given public **. If I am lucky enough to get a ** facial I go to the store and walk around and people tell me that I still have ** on my face. I will ask for help and get attention from people one guy wanted some video and pics of me to show his girlfriend and see if she would do it. On the video I explained and said only do it if you want to. I always make sure to buy tampax pearl size ultra tampons and pantihose and maybe a bra all for me. When I left that base the men I knew gave me a party the cake said She is the best with **. They cut my piece off then they all beat off on my piece of cake and handed to me and said just the way you like it princess. I said yes it is let me taste it to make sure, I said yes the different flavors of the ** together is just perfect then a guy said you have ** around your mouth a little and he used his ** to feed it to me and I sucked it off his **. They even videoed it. When I took a bite of the ** cake you can see me smile after each bite went into my mouth and someone asked about my smile I said this is the best cake I ever had i think it is because it has much more ** than I ever have in my food and I wish my food always had more than that but it tastes so good. After the cake I said now you guys work another ** soon for the next thing I eat or drink. I had half a drink and I said this should have the other half of **. They gave a lot. The card they made for me was a Pic of me during my prostitute days with two tricks one in each end just thrusting so hard and so good in me and I was so very happy with the great **. The end of my party heard this announcement. All men who have donated for a happy ending at miss Lisa's party hang around the ** good bye to our ** girl is about to begin. There were more than 20 and I was really riden very hard and I walked like I was ** hard that morning the day after the party. I still love **. I'm now 50 and men still pay for ** with me I look like I'm in my 30's I'm still very feminine with my body in shape and small like a woman. I have become much better at ** from experience and my ** just loves being ** hard and deep. I think ** is so beyond delicious and makes all food so much tastier. Now after I got out of the military I was arrested for solicitation and put in jail in a stunning dress bra stockings stiletto high heels thigh high ** me boots. They guy in the jail who searched me thought my bra was stuffed and went into my bra and tried pulling out the "stuffing" I screamed and said your squeezing by ** ** and it hurts want me to squeeze or bite your **. Then in strip search the seriff saw my ** and said sorry I said and these "D" cups are all real. They asked if it bothered me the male sheriff's seeing me like this i said no if they didn't want to see me naked that would bother me. I giggled my top and said you men like what you see i know I love men playing with them and me. They put me in with the men but still in my black minidress makeup pantihose and heels then I said hello ** men I was arrested for solicitation of prostitution but in here I will give you men free ** or ** your choice to make it a little nicer for you. I was approached and said ok men make a line i won't leave out any man who wants me. After lights out ** to my bunk I'll let you in. I was really filled with ** then.