Why They Castrated Me

At a very young age I committed indecent exposure, sexual assaults and ** which led to me being de-balled.

At first I was put on Depo-Provera and ketoconazoleto to prevent erections. I never had an ** after being put on the medication. Mother said she was relieved and very pleased that my 'thing' was as limp as a wet noodle. A few months later mother had me castrated. Later, she said it was part of the plea agreement. I was kept on the medications for a long time after being gelded. After the medication was stopped I remained impotent and flaccid. I'm not sure if the impotency is caused by the castration or if the medication also had an effect. They removed my ** and left the empty sac. The empty sac got in the way.

However mother decided to have the sack removed too. She took me back to the doctor and she cut off my ball sac. She did a nice job, leaving just enough of the sac to pull the edges together and form a ridge or artificial raphe. It looks very natural. It looks like I was born that way, without a **.

Mother would not allow me to have any testosterone supplements or treatment. She said she wanted it kept limp and didn't want any more trouble. Now I just have a limp noodle and about zero interest in **. I'm in college but I don't find any of the girls to be attractive. I suppose I could take testosterone to make me normal but it is expensive. The testosterone patches are very expensive and there are pills, a gel and injections. I'm not sure that a doctor would allow me to have it and I would have to be monitored because I'm on the ** offenders list.

I'd have a difficult time finding a girlfriend anyway because obviously I am sterile and can't produce any children. I wouldn't be able to get any erections without testosterone. I'd have to explain to her why I don't have any ** or a **. I'd have to explain what I did and why I was emasculated. I think she'd be shocked and repelled. All the that girls I know, think that I got what I deserved and keep me at a distance.

That raises the question--should juvenile offenders be castrated? My mother and the Judge and the victim's families and the victims themselves and the physician all agreed to YES. So they castrated me, removing my ** and ball sac.