I want my man 😔

I talked to a guy for abt a month after breaking up with my ex 2 weeks prior. it’s been abt 2 months since we’ve stopped talking. he was so sweet and nice and i think i ** it up. he was just that nice guy that would never tell me what happened just it wasn’t what he was looking for. idk what i did wrong but whatever i did im so sry. i see him almost everyday and luckily its going to stop soon but i dont think im over him yet. i started another talking stage with another guy but hes just too similar to my ex for me to feel comfortable. i rly want the first guy i talked to back he was just perfect and i think mentally healed me with my breakup and its making me feel like this. we went from talking everyday and now nothing. i cant even look him in the eye without thinking what i did wrong. i recently found out from a friend the real reason why he broke it off was bc i didn’t speak japanese (his first language) and that was something he specifically would’ve liked. due to my Japanese last name many people assume despite being full chinese. i was also told he wanted to me take more initiative with dates and talking bc i had experienced but to me i felt like i wanted to do it at his pace bc i didnt want to pressure him as it was his first relationship. i still want him so ** bad but i know i can’t. it hurts to think about that one month of joy i had, think abt everything i could’ve had but ** up badly. i’m trying to move on but it’s so hard. everything abt him was perfect i didn’t care about surface things like looks but his personality was so sweet and caring. i don’t think ill ever find that kind of guy again. but i know i can’t be hung up on him anymore i know i need to let him go. i dont know what to do anymore. do i move on? do i try to replace that hurt with someone else? do i try and start it again? do i apologize? someone please help me give me advice i desperately need it before i make a dumb decision.

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