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Still afraid to have friends
As a young child I had problems keeping friends. Partially because my father was in the Army and we moved alot. When I did have a new friend someone was always moving. Even now that I am 46 y.o. I have problems keeping friends. if they say or do something that bothers me I just delete their phone number and drift away. I basically do not trust them as friends. I hate this! I always see these scenes on TV where people are having parties and invite groups of people over, sometimes I wonder if this is something people really do or if I am so far removed from normalcy. I don't even have anyone but my immediate family to go to my funeral if I die tommorow. I wonder if I am right to be this way or if I want a bunch of fake friends around?
I can relate, kind of the same upbringing myself (father worked for NASA) but on top of that I was molested by the father of one of my friends. It's hard having no one close. Hang in there.