Well, I don't have a father. Unfortunately he passed away when I was two so I never really got to know him. I've never really had a male influence in my life before and it kinda sucks. Recently in the past few months I've been thinking that I'd like a Daddy. I want one REALLY badly, like I cry because I want one. I want an older man to be my Daddy, I want him to love me, I want him to take care of me and protect me and I want to be his little girl. I want to be the most important thing in the world to him and in return I'd submit myself to him and allow him to control me. I am very aware that this isn't exactly a 'normal' thing to want in life, but it's tearing me up inside. I keep saying I'm only 18, you could get this soon but it doesn't make me feel any better. I'm a girl as well. Anyway, I'm not really sure what to do about this, I feel extremely depressed because of it.