why does life have to be so hard

I know i love him. And i know that he feels the same. But nothing can happen because we will both loose everything and we know it. And why? Because hes my teacher. And he has been my teacher for the last three years. We text and talk way beyond what is acceptable. I think about it all the whole time. Deep down i know it has to end before people find out. Or he will loose his job, i will more than likely loose my friends and the respect of everyone i know.
See the thing is that i'm seen by a lot of people as the perfect kind of person. I come across as a person brimming with confidence- loud, bubbly, funny. I'm one of the popular kids. A straight A student. Plays all the sports. But i hate myself. I hate who i am and i hate what i do. And the only time i feel like i can be myself is when i'm with him.
I've got a boyfriend who i like but i don't think i'll ever love. I feel like i'm being so unfair to him. And this teacher of mine has a girlfriend. I know things will never work but I still can't get him out of my head.

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  • I know exactly how you feel. Except he doesn't have a girlfriend and I don't have a boyfriend. He knows I have a crush on him but I don't know if he likes me but he's been saying some really sweet things lately. He's moving soon and all I seem to think about is him :(

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