There's a guy who likes me. I only liked him as a friend, so I tried not to lead him on. The thing is, he's very shy about it, so he never asked me out so I could never reject him, he just constantly hinted at liking me and all my friends could see it too.
I thought he had gotten over me and I was genuinely relieved because I thought it meant we could go back to being friends and leave all that awkwardness behind.
But the other day, he said something sexual to me and it turned me on. I've masturbated to the thought of him every night.
I don't know how to feel.