I have been picked on when I was young (usually for being too childish or for being too smart), which made me hate doing anything social as well as hide in a mask of someone I don't think I am. I've been doing that for the past decade, and now that I'm a teenager, all I want to do is to blend in the background because now I don't know the real me. For some strange reason I wanted to die young, before 40, by going on a cruise to the Bermuda triangle.
But these past few months have turned my life upside-down. Everyone in my age group already has a path they want to pursue, while I just want a simple apartment and a dog. I can't die young either because I have three siblings and a mother to support, and I don't think I can leave any of this to them. I don't want to get into a relationship because I know it will all eventually fade away and my family needs me, so I definitely won't have time for that. Now I don't have any idea on what to do after I graduate (if ever), since all I the only future I remembered wanting was to go on an impossible adventure with powers and magic.