i just dont want it to happen
Damn this world if those cops accuse me for something retrospective and accuses my dad for i have done it. while i go travel a week im scared that the cops will come and accuse my dad for something that is retrospective and something that i have done. i hope that the police isnt that corrupted that they just put people in jail for nothing they have done even if he or i would have been free then my or his life would be ruined forever and i wont be able to continue i think.
Im so g******* anxious and depressive and i seriously dont want to be that on my trip and im so fricking paranoid and so scared that the cops are so crooked they would do such a thing i seriously regret everything come on it only happend like 5 months ago i would take suicide if they came here but i dont think i would be able to go through that either and i would be so sad if my dad would be accused he has been trying hard to get to our hearts and then i wouldnt be my mothers artistic child that shes always been wanting. i just dont want anyone to be a burden or to be dissapointed by my family or my society and i would never ever live a normal life again those trials ruin more lifes than save. I just wanna progress in life and forget what i have done, i feel so lonly and this would ruin my life. I could never get kids never a girlfriend never my dreamjob never live a normal life again i would probably end up in a asylum on anti depressive meds.
I dont just want it to happen and if it would happen it would probably put my dad in jail but it was my wrong doing and the whole government would be corrupted because of this dammit it was 5 months ago. i cant just drop the thought that theyd would arrest him from day one that they were actually planning before the law was brought in and i wouldnt be able to prove that it was done retrospective because i dont have the cache ,man life sucks, im seriously worried, depressed, scared, lonely, paranoid, angry, sad, heartbroken. I JUST DONT WANT IT TO HAPPEN!