Forever yours, faithfully
I'm deeply in love with a guy who is not only in love with me, but is also an amazing person and one of my best friends. We started dating 5 months ago and it's been incredible. We have great chemistry and we get along so well, and I can't remember the last time I was this happy.
The problem lies with one of my guy friends. A while ago, we started hanging out, and I didn't tell my boyfriend (I didn't think he'd really care). But things went bad a few weeks ago, when my friend tried to kiss me. I let him do it, and I guess you could say we hooked up. After that, I told him I couldn't do this any more. My boyfriend still has no idea.
After weeks of feeling guilty, I had a dream last night in which I had s** with the friend. As I haven't yet "gone all the way" with my boyfriend, I woke up shocked and disturbed. This is so wrong, I know, but subconsciously I'm attracted to my friend and I can't help but think about him.