Best friend troubles.
I have a boyfriend, he loves me and I love him, but lately I've been feeling close to my best friend.
My boyfriend and I have been fighting on and off...really bad fights and he's really hurt me. During all this, I told my best friend that I have developed a crush on her, she admitted that she too, has a crush on me.
Feeling bad, the next day I explained to her that as much as I'd like to be with her, I still have a boyfriend, and I was stuck. She understood, she let it go and told me to be happy and focus on my boyfriend. It killed me. She became distant and isolated from me, it killed me. I want to be with her so badly, she has no idea.
A few days ago, my boyfriend broke up with me. I wasn't shocked, I wasn't sad, I wasn't happy...I was numb. All I thought about was how badly I wanted to be closer to my best friend. And now it seems like she doesn't want me anymore. What do I do? I've lost all the people I care about, and the one that DID want me seems to not want me anymore. What can I do?