I am fifteen years old. My father left me when i was two. My mother and stepfather have beaten me my whole life. everyone always tells me i am beautiful. I don't feel beautiful. I feel beaten, useless, unworthy. My mom leaves me everyday to drink with her boyfriend, and i have to watch her kids. She brings home people high on drugs. I just want her to be proud of me. I just want my real father to love me, and be here for me. I was adopted by my stepfather, and now he is divorcing my mother. I will now be fatherless once again. My mom just made me move with her into this new town. I know noone. I feel alone. I don't understand what god wants from me.