I'm addicted to Oxycodone and I've been denying it for a long, long time. I steal it from the people who actually need it (for instance my mom is one; she has horrible pain but I STILL take her pills). I love oxycodone but I hate that I'm pathetic enough to think I need it. It's the only thing that stopped me from cutting, so I tell myself "It's okay that I'm taking this...at least it's better than cutting!"

Even as I'm typing I want Oxy...I don't want to feel depressed and angry. I want to f****** fly. I hate that it's my only escape. I hate that I'm too weak to tell anyone I'm addicted. No, I don't want help. I want to keep taking drugs to make myself happier. Even though it could kill me I take it. In fact that just makes me want to take more and more. At least if I OD and die, mom won't run out of pills as fast.


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  • Its good 4 u mum dont need it all go 2 dr say u hav same illnes as mum then u get more

  • More to life than that sweetheart! Keep that chin up and smile. You might be overlooking the good things in life. Probably why you're so sad. :( please don't be sad though. I love you a lot!

  • ...i kno how yu feel...i was addicted to alcohol, meth, and kool beans...but, about a year ago, i found A.A. and N.A. and let me tell you, it changed EVERYTHING...not at first of course. wen i first started going to meetings i was p*****...everyone was so happy and peppy and it annoyed the living s*** out of me, it took time to realize i had a problem, and really wanted help. i had to look back and think about how many family and friend relationships i truly f*cked up. i had noone when i went into the program(A.A.) and now i have everyone. many friends, all my family back. It's a great feeling. This is NOT the road you want to go down. please go to a meeting. and if you are not ready for a meeting, simply talk to a friend....talk to SOMEONE. it will help. i'll keep you in my prayers. take care and good luck....please keep yourself safe.

  • You should talk to someone. You aren't a bad person, you're just dealing with something hard. I was a bulimic for three years and trust me, you may think that you need it now, but when you get past this, you'll see how messed up your thinking was. Just talk to a friend.

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