I've had a mad crush on this girl for years but can't even say anything related to "I like you" 'cause I'm scared she might not like me and avoid me forever. Every time I think about her I wanna beat myself up since I know I can never be with her or even be friends with her. Everyone likes her but the things that really irritates me is that some Japanese pervert keeps trying hit on or suave her by acting cute and funny. I know what he wants and what he'll do and I want to punch him and beat the s*** out of him every time I see him do it. I confessed this here since I know all these thoughts of her kept secret are not healthy for me. She is now far away from my reach or contact and I am looking for ways to erase memories of these painful times.