I don't want to hurt anymore.

You were my best friend, and we hung out and talked everyday. One night, we hung out, sitting, trying to study as I messed with your scruffy hair, and teased you about your muscles. As we drove home, listening to Taylor Swift and held hands, I thought oh my he really does like me. We went for a walk around the lake, I was under your arms, where I belong. You and I are cuddling as we watch the stars, we both look up just as a shooting star flies above us. We both make a wish. I tell you I want to get married. You jokingly get down on one knee and propose to me. I run my fingers through your hair and tell you I would marry you in a heartbeat. Days pass we talked about everything until the sun comes up. Then suddenly, you call me one night and tell me you are going to find me, the perfect guy. I start to cry. and cry and cry. secretly of-course. Why would you say such things, when you know my heart belongs to you. My heart starts to silently shatter, crumble, and fall to the ground. Was I wrong, was this all a lie? Nothing makes sense anymore. Then you tell me you're going to Saudi for 42 days, & that you won't be here for valentines day. I don't make a big deal about it, but I'm hurting inside. You tell me again, about how I deserve an amazing guy. Our texts get colder and colder. More distant as the day goes by. You ask me, if I don't want a better guy then, what do you want. I pause, I don't know how to reply. Inside I'm screaming All I want is you. All I need is you. Please don't hurt me.

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  • Why not copy this to him and tell him that? He may think you deserve better than him? Be direct, open and honest.

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