Wasn't worth it.
20 years later, I still wish the first time had never happened. As a teen I was just too young and in my opinion, ALL teen-agers are too young for s**. I can't even say I was in "love", I wasn't. I was excited to have a first boyfriend and he pressured me and said things that didn't make me feel good about myself. I felt WORSE afterwards, after he was feeling pretty good about himself at my expense. I learned later that a boy who REALLY likes a girl won't pressure her or say or do anything to make her feel like there's something wrong with her for not wanting to have s**. I kept saying I wasn't ready, that should've been enough. We moved away and I was glad because it meant I didn't have to have s** with him anymore, because after the first time, he wanted it EVERYTIME. Nothing was ever going to be like it had been before. I said it fifty times + times I wasn't ready and he just wouldn't let up. If I could have that day back, I would've broken up with HIM! I'm beginning to think that separate educations, (as is done is some countries) especially for adolescent boys and girls, is a better idea for girls. It may be even better for boys, they'd be less distracted by anything in a skirt.