I get the urge to kill randomly, out of the blue. Not from emotion, or targeting anyone in particular. Just a creeping, macabre influence that lasts for varying amounts of time, before fading.It never quite disappears, only lulls, hiding way down where I can't feel it but know it's there.When I least expect it, it seeps back.I don't know from whence it comes, or why.
I know it is dangerous. I know it is unhealthy.For those reasons, I realize it would be wise to try to get rid of the inclination, but I can't seem to shake it- not completely. I can control myself, and what I do, but not the impulses themselves.