Ive never felt so guilty.

I hadnt seen my cousin in over a year and when he came downstairs i couldnt help but check him out.
he looked so different!
i never felt so guilty, repulsive, abnormal or disgusting as i did when i caught myself checking him out and wondering what it would be like to kiss him.

i would never, ever, ever act on those brief thougts, but i feel so vile for even thinking them.
he would think im the biggest freak ever if he found out and now i feel guilty every time i see him.

has this ever happened to anyone before?

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  • I've had the same thing with my cousin. As long as you don't act on it, it's totally innocent.

  • I would never act on my feelings.
    It's not like I had a major thing for him.
    More than anything, I felt like an abnormal freak and I felt guilty for even considering such a thing.
    It just seems weird to me.


  • This sort of thing is really common actually so its not totally out of the ordinary. I know several people with incest fetishs. Its best not to act on them when there is a close relation since it can f*** up a relationship but this is just your cousin so i wouldnt worry too much. A fair number of guys i know are fine with cousins. I dont know why but they just are. Maybe he wil think its cute since you seem kind of innocent about it. You dont have to tell him necisarily htough since it can pass if you fall in love with someone.

  • Yes, it's called fantasizing. And everyone does it. Often is weird ways that have no way of becoming reality. Settle down, girl. You haven't done anything wrong.

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