Ive never felt so guilty.
I hadnt seen my cousin in over a year and when he came downstairs i couldnt help but check him out.
he looked so different!
i never felt so guilty, repulsive, abnormal or disgusting as i did when i caught myself checking him out and wondering what it would be like to kiss him.
i would never, ever, ever act on those brief thougts, but i feel so vile for even thinking them.
he would think im the biggest freak ever if he found out and now i feel guilty every time i see him.
has this ever happened to anyone before?