Old-fashioned, not lazy
I desperately want to be a house wife. Not because I have some idealized concept of it, but because I love the idea of raising children and being home with them, of caring for my significant other and our family, and in some ways, deferring to the decisions of the person " in charge", letting them worry over the finances and whatnot while I focus on my kids. I feel like it'll never actually happen, though, because I'm a lesbian and I've yet to meet a girl who was both fun to be with AND responsible enough to be the only bread-winner in the family--or that would be willing to take on that responsibility even if they were capable of it. The idea of raising children with any of the women I've dated makes me cringe, and so I keep putting it off. I worry that if I keep waiting, one day it'll be too late, and I'll never get the family I want.
Long story short? My secret: Sometimes I consider dating and marrying a man, pretending to be in love with him, just so I can live out my fantasy of living the life of a 1950's housewife.