Fear Is no man's friend and neither is time
I'm just going to say it. I'm a s***. I've dated 8 guys in the last 8 months and i can't even say that i've liked anyone of them. I dumped my last bf 2 weeks ago( i think, see! i'm not even sure) and my greatest fear has been brought to my eyes once again. I act really happy when i see people but, my happiness is just an act. I'm never happy. I'll never find love and I'll grow old alone and die alone with no one. I have a massive fear of being alone. Without a soul to even listen to me. When no one is around i talk to myself, i hear voices, and I think about killing myself. My friends have already told me to kill myself and the only reason i stick around them is so i'm not alone. People crack jokes about how crazy and hyper i am but, i'm not really that hyper. People molded me into that person in preschool so, that's how i act. I'm quite smart and civilized but, I don't act that way when kids are around. My whole life is a lie!