Torn and hopeless
Im in love with one man and married to another. i wont talk to the man im in love with anymore bec i do love my husband, just not the same way. the other guy is (was) my best friend. my husbands more like a family member that i truly love in that family like way. i feel so depressed bec im afraid ill never be able to be happy either way - i love my husband way too much to leave him/lose him. the heartbreak over that loss, not to mention the shame, would forever mar any new relationship. so i stopped talking to my friend and now im just trying really hard to have a good, satisfying relationship with my husband - initiating s**, trying to spend quality time, calling him/texting him throughout the day...wish me luck please, im so depressed, i feel hopeless like this will never get better. i have so many blessings in life, including how wonderful and sweet my husband is that i feel too selfish and horrible to even complain about this to people...no one really understands anyway...so im confessing here. i met my soulmate and its technically in my power to be with him but if do i dont believe wed actually get to be happy bec of everything else. theres a right and wrong way in life and unfortunately they dont always directly correlate with feeling good and feeling bad.